Sunday, May 28, 2006

Quiz time!

I was finally able to catch up a little on some blog reading and I found this quiz that I stole from 3T

You Are a Newborn Soul

You are tolerant, accepting, and willing to give anyone a chance.

On the flip side, you're easy to read and easily influenced by others.

You have a fresh perspective on life, and you can be very creative.

Noconformist and nontraditional, you've never met anyone who's like you.

Inventive and artistic, you like to be a trendsetter.

You have an upbeat spirit and you like almost everything.

You make friends easily and often have long standing friendships.

Implusive and trusting, you fall in love a little too easily.

Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

Saturday, May 27, 2006

Happy Memorial Day weekend!

To all the men and women that serve our great country everyday and the retired service men and women I thank you from the bottom of my heart! For those in harms way my thoughts and prayers are with you and may you be home soon safe from harm. I know there are many that have injuries and those that have made the ultimate sacrifice and again you are all in my prayers.

To the rest of you enjoy your holiday weekend! I hope you have a safe and wonderful time with your family and friends in whatever way you choose to celebrate! We are just relaxing and enjoying good food and family!

Park Day!

Here I am with the Jackson on park day! I was so happy that he let me pick him up and cuddle with him! What a cutie patootie! I have to admit he had my womb aching for another baby! I guess its a good thing while the pain of delivery was fresh in my mind from Brandon I had those tubes tied! Or I'd be telling Bob to do his duty and without any hesitation we'd be trying for baby number 5. I get those baby pangs whenever there is a baby around but my sanity and my pocket book could not handle another child. I get to be around Jackson enough to make me long for another and not long enough to remember how difficult they can be, if you know what I mean. If however by some miracle the tubes were to get undone and another baby were to makes it way into our lives you know I'd be thrilled! My love for him or her would be overwhelming as it has been for each one of mine. I just think after 22 years of marriage and mothering its time to raise the one's I have to adulthood and in the years to come have my future grandbabies to spoil and send home to my kids. Sounds fair to me!
  I don't ever want to forget this day of firsts for Jackson and I! So here is another picture taken by Brandon.
  This is Mollie one of my new friends! She took the first picture above. I can't tell you how happy I am to have found this wonderful group! I look forward to the next park day. Wow, I know that sounds completely boring and well like I have no life. That isn't the case of course, I'm very busy with running the office for Bob, raising my children, dealing with nursing care, homeschooling and trying to run a semi-efficient home. Not to mention taking care of 3 dogs, 3 cats, 1 rabbit and 1 bird. Yes its a zoo! Now is there any wonder why I hesitate to add to the insanity? I thought not!
 This here is silly Lisa! Not fond of having her picture taken I take it! She admits to reading this blog even though she doesn't comment! She knows about things I don't talk about on park days so she must read it from time to time!
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Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Obsessive compulsive disorder in children

I had a feeling for sometime that we would reach this diagnosis and yet I had hoped it was not the case. It's now official. Brandon has OCD. I hadn't blogged about it before in hopes that if I didn't it wouldn't be true. Life this last year has been increasingly difficult trying to make sense of Brandon's actions. The problem is I'm a logical type person and OCD has to be one of the most illogical disorders I've ever heard of.

Brandon is an exceptionally bright little boy that can grasp concepts that are way beyond his 7 years. However I'm unable to logically get him through any of the issues that have arisen from the OCD. I'm just beginning to learn about this disorder and I'm having difficulty wrapping my brain around it. I'm finding I need therapy to learn how to help him. I'm also finding that the answer that the medical profession is leaning to is medication. Medication and therapy. Neither Bob nor I feel comfortable medicating a 7 year old. Not our baby boy. I'd appreciate any comments from those of you that know anything about this disorder. I'd love to hear from those that either have the disorder or those that have a child with it. I'm feeling very alone and I could really use some support. I've done some surfing to find out more and so far I've found what the medical "experts" tell me to be the norm. If anyone knows of other methods that work successfully for OCD in kids other than meds please let me know about it. I'm off to surf the web for more information.

Friday, May 12, 2006

Not even lurkers anymore.

Wow it seems I've lost all my visitors. I was thinking of having a de-lurking day but as the numbers prove that is pointless. I suppose I never started this with the intent to have any readers and its quite obvious that I can't write well enough and don't have interesting topics otherwise I'd have some readers stop by even occasionally. I'm not saying this for any pity me attention, OK maybe I am somewhat. I'm just stating the obvious. I have a boring life and I'm unable to tell any of it with any pizzaz. I know it its a fact. I guess that just the current state of depression and then the lack of any hits to this site have just brought me down even more. I'm not feeling any love.

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Lisa Welchel

You remember her! The beauty from "The Facts of Life." Well for those of you that don't know she is a homeschool mom. I found that out a few years ago when I was homeschooling Shaun, Jackie and Nickie. I hadn't visited her website in a few years now and I tell you the woman is inspiring. She has 3 teenage children and I have to tell you it is wonderful to read she struggles with the same issues us regular folk struggle with. I was doing a little reading in her journal and the last entry struck a real chord.

I know all too well how difficult the teen years can be. I still have two teens at home and one that will reach that difficult time in 5 years. I have great children I really do but we all have those moments that we doubt our abilities to make it through. Heck, I have to admit I've had flashes of doubt and wonder why I ever thought I could handle this mom thing. I can only hope and pray that I've not completely screwed them up. I would like to have the faith that Lisa has in God that all will turn out. I am more like the Israelites and forget often how He has gotten me through so many other times. I complain, I curse, I rant and I rave. Right now I'll pray that He helps me through all the difficulties I'm going through today and that I will figure out just what His plan is for me. I also hope that His plan will help me to find a stable form of income that will give my wonderful husband some relief from his back breaking work.

Bob is depressed and has been for sometime. He hates what he does but he is self employed and really has no other options at this time. He has no retirement plan and he doesn't make enough money to start one either. We have no health insurance and can't afford to get any. We hope and pray that we stay well and don't need a doctor for any reason. Each day he gets up to do what he despises because there is no other recourse. I spend my days and nights trying to figure out what it is that I can do to help. I'm not able to work a 9-5 job as nursing for Nickie is so unpredictable. So I've looked endlessly for legitimate work from home jobs to bring in even just a few extra dollars to ease Bob's burden.

Outside of what I do now which is manage his office I haven't a held job outside of home since before Nickie's birth. I worked at a local bank back then and now I feel I haven't a marketable skill. I know that my job as a mom, homeschool teacher, office manager and wife is important and I believe I'm good at those jobs. They don't however add to the income of our household. I'm tired from all the years of trying to figure a way out of this. Bob is frazzled and at times I think he is losing his mind from the knowledge that he has no other way out.

I've prayed on this subject over the years and thus far there has been no solution. I'm open to suggestions if you have any. Please pray for us. If you don't pray send some good mojo. Do a ritual dance, anything.

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Heart of VA Festival 2006

Saturday brought Farmville's heart of Virginia festival! I snapped some pics from the festival to share with you here. Above is from left to right, Frank, my father in-law, Patty, my mother in-law, Bob my handsome hubby and of course in the foreground my cutie patootie, Brandon. Posted by Picasa
There were a few kiddie rides that Brandon though technically too tall to ride, he just couldn't resist! There were some inflatable bouncy thingies, and slides and trains and a spinning ride. See my little ham in action!

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